I’ve had two dreams about Dustin in the past couple weeks. The first one I just kept hugging him because I knew it wasn’t real. Last night’s dream was the first dream I’ve had that we talked. I’ve had a heavy heart since.
everything moving, everything static
Photographs.
Spraypaint.
Life.
Monday
I feel like I need to get outta here. I’m thinkin Seattle or Portland, or really anywhere new would be great. Fingers crossed I find someone to go with me. Sometime soon I’ll write a real update. Maybe Wednesday when I have my life back.
Friday
I’ve been horrible at writing in here this month! I guess nothing too exciting has happened. Easter was nice, Josh came to my parent’s house and we had a wonderful family day. Roland went in the pool and now he is very excited for summer. I got some work done on my sleeve and I’ve only got 2 or 3 more sessions left, yay! Uh, other than that, I’m just getting final projects started for all my classes and getting really stoked on summer. It’s been two years since Dustin passed away. I can’t believe it’s been that long already. My emotions about it haven’t changed and it really hasn’t gotten any easier. Sometimes things just don’t make sense. Chad’s been in the hospital all week after he was in a motorcycle accident. I visited him for a bit yesterday. He hasn’t woken up yet so it was strange being in a room with him and not hearing him talk and be goofy like he always is. I just hope he’ll be ok.
Summer
I’m starting my summer to do list early in hopes that I will succeed in completing it.
- bike
- bake
- finish sleeve
- booth at First Friday
- make stuff to sell at First Friday
- get a second job
- visit somewhere new
- photograph
- clean out closet/clothing
- new tattoo
- read many books
to be continued…
Monday
Class early this morning. I didn’t have anything ready to work on in Digital so I left after Drawing. I biked over to Mill and got a few things at American Apparel. Since I got home, I’ve been baking/decorating cupcakes and icing more black and white cookies. For my Digital Photo project, I’m compositing a photo of my fridge and photos of cupcakes. So, if it all works out, I’ll have a fridge full of cupcakes. Oh, and Roland also demanded a photo shoot. Tonight, Josh and I are going to see a movie and who knows what else.
